"The Weight of the Building" - Robert HADDEDJIAN
Robert Haddedjian's article "The Weight of the Building" is devoted to the author's reflections on the spiritual and symbolic significance of Armenian church buildings, prompted by his attendance at a Sunday liturgy in one of the suburban churches.
Introduction and Circumstances
The point of departure is the author's personal experience: his presence at a service in a beautiful old church with a gilded khoran, his observation of the Great Entrance and the moment of censing before the chalice of communion. The author's attention, initially focused on the liturgical action and the aesthetic perception of the interior — the walls, the dome's vault, the paintings, the chandelier — suddenly shifts to an unexpected inner experience.
Central Thesis: Weight as Responsibility
The article's central image is the sensation of a physical yet invisible weight pressing upon the author's shoulders, as though the very building of the church and its entire historical burden were descending from above. The author draws a distinction between two kinds of weight:
- the material weight of stone, brick, glass, and decoration, which, he asserts, is "nothing";
- an invisible, more formidable weight — the weight of responsibility, hovering in the air like the scent of incense.
It is precisely this second weight, in the author's view, that constitutes the true content of the experience of entering an Armenian church.
Development of the Theme
Haddedjian formulates the article's central question: is a person, upon crossing the threshold of an Armenian building, capable of feeling upon his shoulders the full weight of its past and its significance? He emphasizes that:
- awareness of this weight is equivalent to understanding why one has entered the church;
- it allows one to truly appreciate the significance of the building and to accept responsibility for it;
- the absence of such a sensation is evidence of a superficial, "lightened" attitude toward heritage, whereby a person leaves the church as "light" as when he entered.
The author notes that most of those present, following the liturgy and content with that alone, fail to notice this hidden weight, whereas it is precisely the sensing of it that makes the experience of the church's space complete and authentic.
Conclusion
The article's culmination is the author's prayer that the weight of the beautiful building be distributed among all those present as sacredly as the good news descending from the altar. The text's final conclusion is that every visit to an Armenian church should be accompanied by an inner question as to what share of the building's historical and spiritual weight a person is willing to take upon himself, since it is precisely this weight of responsibility that determines the true bond between the individual and the preservation of heritage.
An essay on a personal experience in church, raising the question: can a person, upon entering an Armenian church, feel and take upon themselves the weight of its past and meaning.
the weight of inherited responsibility